I think it helps to realize that I need an adjustment period. When I quit SLO city and was on my own without a job for several weeks I was not immediately productive, but in fact I was doing better than I expected. I soon filled my hours with activities and could happily have continued if I could have afforded it. I was surprised that I had no trouble being without a "title".
I would like that life back, for good. But in the meantime I adjust. I have about a year left on this job so I will probably go for retirement around this time next year. It's a nice thought but I do need to feel okay about the money.