Judith Lautner (judith) wrote,
Judith Lautner
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nothing

There is a little hike in El Chorro Park that winds its way through beautiful oak woodlands, offers amazing views, climbs up to a special rock, ends in a meadow. This hike I took today, late in the day. Thus I saw only two other people while on it.

When I got to the top, Eagle Rock, I sat there, ate a banana, read part of a book, and mostly just sat and listened and felt the wind and saw the hills, the highway, the golf course below me. I closed my eyes and lay back on a lower rock, where it was almost comfortable. I could feel the warmth of the sun along with the stiff breeze, and it was perfect. I let in the sounds, tried to let out the thoughts. But I didn't get rid of them.

It occurred to me that I am afraid of nothing. Literally. I would rather be afraid of something. I can deal with that.
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