Today I leave for San Jose again. The last time for a while, I expect, although dealing with Mike's estate may take me there now and then. I am tired of packing and traveling. I don't actually mind the drive and I love being with my sisters, yet I feel I can't focus on anything else. I fritter away my time when I am home, I think because so much seems unresolved right now. I need to get myself out of the mode of needing it to be resolved and just do what needs to be done for me. Things like scheduling appointments for eye exams and getting new glasses. I don't even get the car washed. But maybe I can do that on the way out of town.