August 24th, 2004

Roman

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I tried playing a game of internet checkers. After three tries I got a beginner who actually played, but he didn't finish the game. Now I am suffering in silence.
Roman

Headache over

After two very hot showers and some reading and attempts at rest, the headache subsided enough. It seems to be just about gone now and I don't feel too awful for having lost sleep.
Roman

Books and more books

Two more packages arrived yesterday, from Amazon. A true story about a woman in the Amazon, another book on prozac, and a book by Paul Krugman, plus a CD, a violinist, playing several violin favorites. I am in the midst of completing The War on Freedom and Banana Republicans, but I took time out to read some escape lit, and now I am escaping into David Healy's Let Them Eat Prozac. I knew Healy's rep, good doc who has written extensively about antidepressants, and looked forward to this latest.

It is indeed an escape, for me. At the same time it is an eye-opener that will go on my page on mental illness. I am learning things about Prozac that I had not read, quite as clearly, in other books, so this fills in some gaps. Most significant is the effect of SSRIs on suicidal tendencies. The researchers knew at the start that these drugs have the effect of causing more people to commit or attempt suicide. They also covered up the evidence that the drugs promote dependence and even marketed them as non-addictive - which I knew.

Anyway, I toyed with the idea of skipping part of work today to read this book! I won't, but the temptation is there.
Roman

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I am almost through with the 2000 tax return. I have a PC meeting tonight, so may not get it done today, but it's close. Tomorrow is going to be busy also, with Hildy going to the shop (and back again) and with volunteering for the dems at five.
Roman

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Let Them Eat Prozac is so engrossing. It is almost like reading a suspense novel, except that I already know the ending, or nearly do. I love reading case histories, and there are several in here. I think they are a really good way to describe effects of these drugs.

The book is primarily about the suicide connection. So I expect to learn a great deal about that part of seratonin reuptake inhibitors, less about other effects. However, Healy does note the presence of "akathisia", a kind of nervousness, in many of these cases. What he notes about the suicidal ideation is more detailed than what I've read before, and gives the lie to the drug companies' contentions that "these people are already suicidal...". The type of suicidal thoughts are very different and the person's ability to control them - inability - very very different from their previous suicidal thoughts. I am so hooked on this book.
Roman

Super saver shipping

Here is the tracking report on books that arrived yesterday.

Aug 23, 2004 05:11:00 PM SAN LUIS OBISPO CA US DELIVERY
Aug 23, 2004 07:05:00 AM SAN LUIS OBISPO CA US OUT FOR DELIVERY
Aug 23, 2004 04:50:00 AM SAN LUIS OBISPO CA US ARRIVAL SCAN
Aug 23, 2004 12:12:00 AM VERNON CA US DEPARTURE SCAN
Aug 20, 2004 11:08:00 PM VERNON CA US ARRIVAL SCAN
Aug 20, 2004 10:29:00 PM ANAHEIM CA US DEPARTURE SCAN
Aug 20, 2004 06:59:11 PM ANAHEIM CA US LOCATION SCAN
Aug 20, 2004 06:37:00 PM ANAHEIM CA US UNLOAD SCAN
Aug 20, 2004 03:28:00 AM ANAHEIM CA US ARRIVAL SCAN
Aug 19, 2004 11:00:00 PM VERNON CA US ADVERSE WEATHER CONDITIONS DELAY
Aug 17, 2004 10:30:00 AM HODGKINS IL US DEPARTURE SCAN
Aug 16, 2004 11:48:00 PM HODGKINS IL US UNLOAD SCAN
Aug 16, 2004 10:42:00 PM HODGKINS IL US ARRIVAL SCAN
Aug 16, 2004 08:36:58 PM US BILLING INFORMATION RECEIVED
Aug 16, 2004 06:45:00 PM FORT WAYNE IN US DEPARTURE SCAN
Aug 16, 2004 05:11:31 PM FORT WAYNE IN US ORIGIN SCAN
Aug 15, 2004 05:47:03 PM Fort Wayne IN USA SHIPPED

Note that the books arrived in Vernon, went on to Anaheim, then went back to Vernon. A lot of things happen in that Vernon connection, I've noticed. I also see that the box landed on the delivery truck at 7:05 yesterday morning, and finally made it to my place at 5:11 last night. Those boys have LONG days.
Roman

Reasons I get worked up about drugs for "mental illness"

1. Disregard for individual lives - the effect of the drugs on individuals- havoc, death, destruction of relationships
2. Disregard for economy - overspending on drugs we don't need
3. Disregard for truth - drugs are marketed deceptively and FDA tests are meaningless because they are funded by the drug companies, who can choose which tests to send to the FDA. Further, the companies only have to show that the drug does *something*. Not that it actually works for the purpose for which it is marketed.
4. Deceptive marketing to physicians, and marketing to general practitioners more than trained professionals in mental health
5. Ghost-written studies in magazines
6. Over-pricing of current drugs, which are prescribed because of above deceptive marketing and which are often not even as effective as older drugs, which are no longer under patent

I could go on. I will go on, but later.
Roman

On the delightful side...

I met my next-door neighbor outside on Sunday, when I was doing a little clearing of leaves. James asked about the chorale, and I said I finally had news, that we will be doing Bach's Christmas Oratorio on December 18. I said the first meeting is Aug 30, a potluck. He asked if he could come along, just to mingle. I said I'd find out. Then I asked him if he might want to audition.

Yes! The auditions were the next day, Monday, hardly time to prepare a piece, but I told him he could sing My Country Tis of Thee if push came to shove, and I told him the web site address so he could write or call to arrange for an audition.

Well, glory be. He did it! He auditioned last night and came on over to my place afterwards. He won't know until Wednesday if he got in, but he said it was just the most wonderful five minutes! He felt so at home. I hope like crazy that he gets in! That kind of enthusiasm doesn't grow on trees, and he does have the background in singing, so I bet he will get in.

This neighbor is so nice, so friendly and open. And I tend to be my somewhat reserved self, don't invite him into my mess, for example. We've talked about going on walks together but haven' t yet done that. There are probably other things we could do. It's nice to have good neighbors, unusual neighbors.
Roman

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The Planning Commission meeting went well. I also managed to get in a round of Kathy Smith - her fat burning interval workout. I finished just before Paul came home. I am sure that if he walked in on me doing one of these things that he would just go about his business. I think.