May 29th, 2003

Roman

sleepless

I felt sleepy and went to bed at eight last night. But I didn't sleep. Four hours later I was still tossing and readjusting and trying to rid myself of a headache, then also of nausea. I think my aerobic activity level hit a new high. And now here I am, up after having gotten a few zzs fitfully, tired of trying one side, then the other, one pillow then two, tearing up the sheets, sleeping on top then under, putting on the light and reading.

I don't seem to be thinking of anything in particular as this goes on, mainly trying to put my mind to rest, occasionally wandering into thoughts about the book I have been reading and a movie that was on television.

The mockingbirds are singing. The great wonder of it, the nighttime serenades. This never keeps me up, just makes me smile. If I could sing like that when spending a sleepless night maybe it would be worth it.
Roman

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I'm at work, short time, going home soon with files. I sent Word files by email, plenty to work on when I feel inclined.

Maybe I'll find Cracker again, though. I can hope.
Roman

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I am back to reading The Corrections after setting it aside and reading about fifteen other books. It's a remarkable book, worth the critical (and popular) praise. I sometimes read lines in here that I want to remember, so I am copying them here:
P. 308:

...But suddenly she reminded Enid of Katharine Hepburn. In Hepburn's eyes there had been a blank unconsciousness of privilege that made a once-poor woman like Enid want to kick her patrician shins with the hardest-toed pumps at her disposal.


P. 309-310:

Here was a torture that the Greek inventors of the Feast and the Stone had omitted from their Hades: the Blanket of Self-Deception. A lovely warm blanket as far as it covered the soul in torment, but it never quite covered everything. And the nights were getting cold now.
Roman

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I'm hanging on a bit tonight. Going to bed early last night sucked, so maybe going later won't. Especially considering I took a Vicodan tablet too. Hoping for a better looking me tomorrow. A work-acceptable me.