May 31st, 2002

Roman

headachey

I felt vaguely headachey during the night, so getting up wasn't nice. I took two aleve tablets and it seems to be getting better. I dreamed of people undergoing strange changes to their bodies, through some kind of clothing, sci fi kind of thing. A thin guy lying down looking at his waist expanding. Vibrating as it expands.

I dreamed I saw a movie with two well-known actors. One was Robert Redford, and I'm not sure of the other. But the movie was about the older guy, gay, resisting friendship from the other, not gay. Don't know what this means in my life.
Roman

food food and more food

Everyone came in with goodies for the potluck breakfast today. It's incredible. My little frittata looks almost forlorn amidst all the glory. Lordy. I think we were all ready for another potluck, is what it was.

When I first came to work here it seemed like there were potlucks all the time. Then they slowed and we suffered through long droughts. Now we're BACK.
Roman

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Now that I'm full, I'm also dissatisfied. The food and company are nice. I am just having doubts, asking myself questions, wondering what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. I guess that's it. Vague feeling of dissatisfaction. Only not all that vague.
Roman

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sleep again. I came home, watched television while sorting and cleaning things near my computer desk, then took a nap. The Simb joined me for a while. I don't know why I find it so comforting to have him near me, licking himself and purring. It's a steady thing, something I can count on, it evens out the world for me.
Roman

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I did Stacey tonight. I felt stronger than I did the last time I did it. I used hand weights in the aerobic portions and pushed the regular weights up a bit. I think I'm at least finding my way back to where I was, more or less.