March 15th, 2002

Roman

mildly depressed

I am thinking about things that don't work out. Challenges with food. Challenges with relationships. Challenges with workouts.

I will do a video workout today instead of bodypump. I should call the gym and see about setting up an appointment for the machines. I did call the podiatrist and made an appointment for next week for my feet. I suppose that I could get used to lifting weights in the weight room instead of going to a class. It is another way to meet people, of course, but mainly those who use weights. The other day I saw a woman in there going from one machine to another, maybe making one small lift or move, then sitting around finding people to chat with. It seemed clear to me that she wanted to present the appearance of working out but didn't really want to do it.
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    tired tired
Roman

flushing

I am taking niacin supplements these days because it is a likely way to head off migraines. Only, it makes my skin flush. I can't determine when it will happen - shortly after I take the tablet or hours later - and I can't tell how long it will last. I have had some bouts last a few hours! And that's embarrassing. I get red-faced and especially red-necked. People ask if there's something wrong with me. I know there is another variety of niacin that doesn't cause the flushing but I don't know if it has the same effectiveness in preventing migraines.
Roman

headache

I did almost see it coming. I have been so tired, have lost some hours of sleep and pushed on anyway. Now I have a headache, I ate too much, I feel rotten. I think a lot of this comes from not doing bodypump class and not having a firm plan set in place for its replacement. I will do Tracie today. Tonight, it is getting to be. headaches make my world look dim.
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    sick sick
Roman

Read it

Oh all right, I am going to stop trying to look at this journal as private and now and then assume that others do read it on occasion. And I'll ask questions or offer suggestions or whatever.

Today's recommendation: read Influence: The Psychology of Persuasion, by Robert B. Cialdini, Ph.D. This book tells you how people influence other people in every part of life. I think it should be required reading in every high school or college. I can't take credit for discovering it. striver recommended it highly to me. It is written in an easy-to-read style but is not fluff. Nice combination. And really revealing. I thought I knew a little about persuasion but this one shows me I was just touching the tip of that iceberg. The book, paperback, is about $12 at Amazon (of course shipping is four bucks, so ya gotta work things out, maybe go to your local bookstore instead).
Roman

oh Tracie

Oh yeah, I did Tracie's workout. About fifteen minutes into it my head was just screaming, pounding. I am familiar with this feeling. It either means things are just going to get worse and worse or else this is the climax and it will start to back off from there. The second is what happened. I have almost no remnant of the headache left now, but am going to hit the shower, get that hot water on my head, and that may end it altogether.

I had to do that workout or else face the double-whammy of feeling awful and also feeling guilty for not doing a workout. Bodes badly for the weekend ahead. So I feel better now. I am going to drink a lot of water to wash it all away.
Roman

A new me

Fresh from a hot shower, wearing a long soft dress given me by a friend at work, I am indeed new, shining, ready to take on..well, let's get realistic. Ready to take on my life again. Yeah.
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    indescribable indescribable