Mary's car blew at the state line last night. She got home at about two a.m., without the car. I learned this much from a call from Elaine and a message Mary left on the phone when I was asleep. I don't know what is wrong with the car but it sounds serious. I woke several times worrying about it and thinking what can I do.
I am feeling anxious about several things. Two reports due at work, plus a big one later this month. Mary's situation. I am imagining her panic,her difficulty putting it in perspective. I have often talked her down. She has others who can talk her down now, and maybe they are doing that. I need to know, though.
I ache. Am I getting sick?
I see I have only been writing in here since last March. It seems much longer. I wanted to see what I was doing a year ago but it is not in here.
Kathy Smith earlier. I feel lazy, undirected. I have all this time but don't do anything.