Judith Lautner (judith) wrote,
Judith Lautner
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sleep

I kept waking, or rather, I woke and could not get back to sleep. So here I am. I lie in bed, restless, on these nights, the thoughts buzzing, and I can't get rid of them.

I think of Dwain and I think of work. I think, "Why didn't he want me?" and remember, of course, that there is no reason. I think of how that report went, how Randy changed everything without first discussing it with me, I think how he met the owner at the site because he wanted "a little one-on-one" and how that make me look and it irritates me. I don't know how long I am going to be willing to stay there, where my integrity and function is eroded by things like this.
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