Judith Lautner (judith) wrote,
Judith Lautner

The loneliness intensifies

Dwain just stopped by to say he can't see me any more. So none of this friends thing after all. He was crying, he said he knows he has hurt everyone he cares about. He couldn't explain.

Of course this makes me feel like shit. I have no response to it. I have done nothing to deserve this yet it feels like I have. Or maybe not, maybe it just feels like I have done nothing to deserve it. That is more frightening, because it is as if I have no control, I can't expect anything to last, I can't relax, I can't trust.

  • The Jerry Bruckheimer Effect

    I suppose it is the curse of anyone who is musical to be unable to ignore music. I am plagued by the piped in music in stores and I choke when I hear…

  • Adventures Downtown

    Yesterday I went downtown three times. The first time I passed by the pasty place and decided to stop and get one. The second time was to pick up a…

  • (no subject)

    NetworkedBlogs Blog: Judith's Topics: Personal, Mental Illness, Animal Rights Follow my blog

  • Post a new comment


    Anonymous comments are disabled in this journal

    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded