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The Tyranny of Fat

I am fat again.

I live in fear of ballooning to my all-time highs. It wouldn't take that much and I've done it before.

The difficulty in being fat is that it self-perpetuates. When I am fat it is harder for me to move, I feel more tired, my bones and joints hurt more. What makes my body feel good is to sit down, or, better yet, lie down.

I have never really seen any health articles that address this part of being fat. How horribly difficult it can be just to walk around the block. How people look at you when you do. How one has to call on reserves again and again, like a critically ill person, to get through a day that would be normal for a thinner person.

So naturally I start over again and again, determined to get back into my former life of reasonable eating habits and exercise. Drinking lots of water. Finding a way to exercise without pain. Sticking to it. I know what to do but it is hard. I'm just stating it. I'm not looking for advice. I'll say that again. I'm not looking for advice.

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jackiejj
Dec. 4th, 2004 01:52 pm (UTC)
You may not be looking for advice, but would you like a partner in your journey? I would like to get really fit next year by walking routinely, eating well--and by that I mean minimizing meat and hopefully becoming a vegetarian over the weeks and months--I would need some help learning how to do that.

I tend to be rather sedentary and to avoid hearty exercise.

Even though we live far apart, I think we could find a way to help motivate and support each other.

If you're interested, we could correspond through emails. I think it would be very helpful, and I admire and enjoy your company through LJ. Perhaps we could just offer each other a simple morning and evening email, be it ever so short.

If you are interested, my email address is on my user page. If you'd rather not, I will certainly understand. In any case, I am concerned about my own fitness and looking into the next six months when I become sixty.

And then Kate moves away, and then I have a new life alone again.

I want to be fit and ready!

Jackie
judith
Dec. 4th, 2004 04:52 pm (UTC)
Sure, I can go for this!

I will write in a bit. Thanks.
prom
Dec. 4th, 2004 02:02 pm (UTC)
i totally relate to this. that is all.
judith
Dec. 4th, 2004 04:53 pm (UTC)
That is somehow comforting to the sick person I am. But really. Perhaps that's why I let that post be visible, because I just wanted people to hear me.
attelage
Dec. 5th, 2004 07:32 am (UTC)
Boy, do I know how you feel. It's a catch 22.

hugs.

If you want another support person participant let me know. I'm game.
judith
Dec. 5th, 2004 07:47 am (UTC)
I do think having a support group of people who are already friends, even "just" online friends, is different from joining a group of strangers.

Heh. We could start our own community. Just for us. hmmmm....

I welcome your support.
attelage
Dec. 5th, 2004 08:12 am (UTC)
Oh yay!

I am so ready to do this with you. Excited. We share so much common ground.
=)
thesliver
Dec. 5th, 2004 12:36 pm (UTC)
People at a clients this week said I'd lost weight, I demurrred as I seriously doubt it. I also don't particularly care, other than when my knees hurt and this week my knees hurt abominably. As they've hurt on and off since I was 18 and I certainly had no excess adipose tissue then I don't put this down to my weight but my knees.

I hope you feel you fit your body better soon.
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