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Tonight I fixed myself a bubble bath and climbed in. I took the washcloth, wiped my face, lay it flat on my chest, hot and warm and wet. I had turned up the heat so I would not get a cold draft. No candles, no soft music, but the intent was there. Yet I could not just lie there. I thought, could I lie in a hot tub, up to my neck, just rest? I could, but I would be struggling inside, fidgety, thinking. What's the secret to resting? Really resting? Relaxing? Really relaxing?

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thesliver
May. 10th, 2003 07:41 am (UTC)
Breathing.
judith
May. 10th, 2003 09:52 am (UTC)
breathing
Yeah, I do know about breathing. I would not have made it this far without it. Using that knowledge in a meditative way, though, has been hard for me.
thesliver
May. 11th, 2003 03:33 am (UTC)
Re: breathing
Well if you want the long version, I could go into even vaguer language about parana bindu or something but it comes down to hyperventilating in the end, just slowly. If you pay attention to your breathing then its hard to chase other mental loops, if you also breathe in some kind of rhythm, and it really doesn't matter what that rhythm is, then you'll be further diverted and if you also breath in through the nose and out through the mouth at the same time then for a while you'll be entirely distracted.

judith
May. 11th, 2003 06:17 am (UTC)
Re: breathing
I do know what you are talking about. What I was saying is that it is something I don't do well. Yesterday, at the top of the hill, when I lay back and closed my eyes, I breathed through my nose, expelled through my mouth, kept it up for a bit, but got impatient. I think this is part of the effort, getting past the impatience. And past the fear of what I will find. I wonder why I fear it.

A friend loaned me a little book, "It's Easier Than You Think", on Buddhism. I was doing very well with it, understanding, absorbing, until we got to the part where I was to sit quietly for five minutes. It's a very odd thing, but I think I share it with others, that I want distraction so much.
thesliver
May. 11th, 2003 08:47 am (UTC)
Re: breathing
Locked as we are inside our sensory tombs stopping the internal dialogue feels like switching off ourselves; often though I'd be there happily congratulating myself on how well I was doing in this to realise that I'd been babbling away all the time.

But, even so, it was relaxing.
prom
May. 10th, 2003 08:23 am (UTC)
emptying the mind. easier said than done!
judith
May. 10th, 2003 09:53 am (UTC)
ABsolutely is.
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